RANT TIME!! Ex-boyfriend Edition

Alright, so here's the thing. I'm not even going to try and cover this up with a metaphor or anything like that - I'm pissed off and I don't care who knows it. 

I'm just going to give everyone the full story so there is no confusion, no room for error, nothing. So. Where do I even begin...

I dated a guy on and off for a little over two and a half years. That is quite a long time, wouldn't you say? It would be plenty of time to share things about each other, be honest with each other, and generally trust each other, no? We lived together for nearly an entire year. I even, stupidly, chose him over my mom at one point in my life. 

Apparently not. 

Over the past year that my ex and I have been apart I continuously learn that more and more things that he told me about his past and even our life together were a lie or that he was telling his friends different things than he was telling me. 

*I want to add a disclaimer that yes, I am still working on getting over my ex, it has been a really hard road because of things like this and the circumstances we ended on. Things like this make it simultaneously easier and harder to get over him, because I have to revisit these things over and over again. Partially because I want to just yell at him and argue with him for lying to me about ridiculous stuff like that. But, it makes it easier because I know that I don't deserve to be lied to and that I don't want to be with someone that toxic ever again. It's also hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I let myself be in that relationship for so long without seeing how toxic it really was.*


It's all ok cuz look how happy I am now!
I'm a model for Origami Handcannon, how
much more could I want in life.

So, to continue my story, I recently met the girl that said ex supposedly lost his virginity to. Only for her to tell me that they never slept together. This angers me on so many levels. First off, why would you lie about this. What difference does it make who you lost your virginity to? And if you're willing to lie about that, what else have you been lying about. The whole situation really upsets me and makes me so angry for not seeing through some of these stupid lies to begin with.

But, it has taught me so much. You have to learn to let these things go and move on. Accept your mistakes and learn from them, that is the only way that you can happily move on. I'm not an expert and I'm still figuring things out. I still cry every once in a while because I feel like such an idiot for believing his lies for nearly three years, but I know it was a life lesson and has molded me into the person I am today.

I am learning to be grateful for even the bad things in life and how to use them to my advantage. If you're going to continue to make the same mistakes, what is the point? Life is about learning from the past and using it to create a better future for yourself and those around you that you care about and care for you in return. 

We have no room for those who don't give us the same amount of respect that we give them. 

Sometimes it can be hard to separate ourselves from these people, but it really is for the best. We need to focus on our own growth and what is best for us as individuals. 

And that is my rant/motivation for the day. What keeps you going?

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Also, coming out sometime soon, I have really exciting news to share with you guys regarding this blog and I'm so fricken excited to share it with you!! I'm working really hard to make blogging and social media my full time job and we are slowly but surely getting one step closer to making that a reality. Thank you for supporting me in all my endeavors and I cannot wait to share this news with you guys. There is already a couple hints on my blog already, but the announcement is coming later. 

Talk soon!
XOXO Ken

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  1. Great job, Kennedy. I have this great video of you talking in Ed's Tavern, about your journey and blog! I'll send

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    1. Omg, I remember! Could you email it to me by chance? Either at kennedy@dailykennedy.com me@dailykennedy.com .

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